Being Stretched

Seems like God is always stretching us, asking us to do what seems impossible. Today I am sitting in Tennessee, in a clean house. I went to church and then ate brunch at Cracker Barrel. I took an afternoon nap and spent time with my family. It was a picture perfect day and yet I am restless. This move has taken more faith than anything I’ve ever done. (Yes, more faith than even moving to Mexico in the first place!)

You know it is easy to work, to stay busy for God’s kingdom, but learning to rest, now that is a different type of work. “Take a sabbatical”, God said! And here we are, trying to rest and all the while feeling like a locomotive derailed. We have run so fast and hard for so long it’s difficult to know how to rest in God’s presence. I thought I would write, but writing has not come easy. It’s not that I don’t have feelings to process, it’s just that sharing leaves you vulnerable and I’m already emotionally exhausted. I’m not ready to hear a barrage of well intended opinions about what others think we should be doing. Mexico, missions, Hope House, Honduras, living in another country with different customs and language, I am left emotionally spent. Those in aid work call it compassion fatigue; and I know I suffer from it. I’ve seen and experienced vicarious trama. The poverty, the pain, the suffering that exists in the world has taken its toll. Now God encourages us to rest, recuperate, rejuvenate, refresh, relax and be revived. But I don’t know how to do that. And so we begin a new phase of this journey called life and I’m being stretched once again by the hand of the almighty.

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2 thoughts on “Being Stretched

  1. Lucinda says:

    The words which God inspires you to share with us are always a blessing. Often, they help us identify what we ourselves are thinking or feeling. “Compassion Fatigue” sounds like a perfect description for the exhaustion you have earned through devotion and hard-fought battles. Now, rest in the Lord–whatever form that takes–because He will certainly replenish you as you seek Him. And when well-meaning individuals offer their advice (as I just did), offer them your gracious smile and commit to remain steadfast in prayer about His plans and directions for your future.

    • I love you dearly and thank you for your encouragement and prayers. I know you too understand compassion fatigue and I continue to pray for you and LC during this time. A million hugs to you!!!

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