“We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be.” C. S. Lewis
We naturally try to avoid pain. In fact we were created with senses which aid to this end. We feel heat, so we move away to avoid being burned, we see a flying object and we move to avoid being hit, we hear the sound of something coming toward us and again we move to avoid being struck. Why do we do this? It’s because we are naturally geared for self preservation and to avoid pain. It is no wonder that it is difficult to grasp the fact that God induced pain is good for us.
Desiring God’s best, wanting to avoid spiritual and emotional pain and yet knowing that I will come out better on the other side for having suffered. This is a concept which perplexes me.
Every fiber within me wants to avoid the pain, however, I somehow feel that I should embrace it. This internal battle makes me question if I really want to submit to His best for me or if I would rather just be comfortable.
It is my utmost desire to finish this race well. To trust fully, to suffer gracefully, to remain faithful to Christ no matter what. And it is my utmost fear that I will fail to do so.