From time to time we talk about going “home”. Ministry is difficult, finances are low & daily we are stretched and stressed. Although it is tempting to think that life would be easier “there” than it is “here”, We know in reality that life would not be easier, but simply different………
There is a little white farm house that sits empty, it’s back drop, the Smokey Mountains. It is surrounded by fields and cattle. There is a creek that runs through those fields and a red barn where animals once sought shelter. Its rafters were once filled with hay and tobacco. There is a natural spring beside the road and a chicken coop that is covered with vines and a gigantic black walnut tree that faithfully drops it’s nuts each year.
It is a beautiful place that some have described as the embodiment of the 23rd Psalm. Sometimes my mind makes it seem magical. Chickens, and vegetables….wild black berries to make jam. We have learned so much about sustainable living in the past few years. Aguaponics, solar power, organic gardening, composting…. living off grid, and from time to time we wonder if living that life would be enough……..and for now we know that it would not.
I remember as a little girl swimming in that creek and riding on my uncle’s motorcycle as we drove up those curvy mountain roads. And yet I knew then that it was not “home”. Even as a little girl I knew that God was calling me to another place, a place far away, a place I had yet to discover. It’s funny, because now I live in an even smaller town. One with cobblestone streets and wild horses, the population just over 1500. (It’s about the size of my high school.) Though we have lived here for almost 13 years, we are still outsiders……again, not “home”. Next week we are going to visit an even smaller place. A place with a different language and culture. There the people have much darker skin than mine and they stare at me because they’ve never seen blue eyes. Although I love being there, it is also not “home”.
One day we will go to our true home. In a blink of the eye we will head to a place which we have never seen, a home prepared by our maker. But today is not the day for going “home”. Today is not the day for giving up. Today is the day to keep our eyes on The Savior and our ears attuned to His voice to follow Him wherever He leads.